Sorry Not Sorry

I honestly have nobody to talk to anymore. Everyone is too busy to listen. People are either having conversations about nothing or talking over one another. Nobody listens or has anything worthwhile to say. It’s the same conversations day in and day out. People complaining and obeying on how to live their lives.

I feel very disconnected with my friends who are suppose to be like my family. I feel very isolated from my own family. There’s a massive divide and I’m on the other side. I want people to understand there’s more to life than what they are being told. But nobody will listen. People want an easy way out and don’t even try to live life.

I constantly have to watch what I say and who I say it to, because God forbid I say something that will offend someone. Not really sure, why I have to be the one who watches what I say. I’m the one living my life, exactly as I choose to live my life. I choose a life of love. I choose a life of freedom. I choose a life of speaking my truth.

I am very intuitive and a sensitive soul. I can sense other people’s energy around me. There may be smiles on people’s faces (under their masks) but there is a lot of sadness in people’s hearts. Low vibrations, moods and energy is what I pick up from everyone around me. It’s only getting worse.

I have found myself turning more inward to meditation, breath work and journaling. It’s been a while since my last blog, so I thought I’d try and get some of my thoughts out again. I wouldn’t say I haven’t been inspired to write, but more so trying to find the right words to say. In the end, it doesn’t matter what I write, as long as I just get it out and down for others to read.

I have experienced more headaches in the past year, than I have ever had in my whole life. People are more judgemental, incredibly rude and easily offended. It’s my job as a healer, to be a therapist and to listen to people’s troubles or their feelings.

I’m sick and tired of people complaining about the same shit everyday. If you don’t like something, change it. If something isn’t working out, change it. If your pain is not getting better, do something about it. I do my best to help heal and make people feel better, but if they aren’t willing to do their own inner work or homework then nothing changes. I can only do so much.

I feel I am being called to be doing more mindfulness work. I feel excited when I can help someone tap into a deeper level of themselves. There’s something so satisfying when someone tells me they feel so present and connected to their physical, spirit and soul body. That’s magical and a wonderful thing.

I want to help others to understand that there is much more to them besides the physical body. There is much more connection to one another and to time & space. People are disconnected from who they really are and who they are meant to be. I have this desire to help others be better human beings. But nobody wants to listen. I feel everyone’s pain. I feel everyone’s hurt. I feel everyone’s fear. I feel everyone’s uncertainty about life.

You only die once. I want to live life with every ounce of my soul. I want to live a life with every fibre of my being. I want love to be the reason for living. I want to be able to teach people how to live better lives by making decision for themselves. I want a world that communicates with one another without judgements, blame or shame. I am doing the very best I can in this life. But I cannot do it alone.

I need you and I need your love right now.