As I walk through this life, I feel myself transitioning into a new version of me. I am letting go the layers of resistance and behavioural patterns that are no longer serving me. My soul wants to remember how to LIVE, even through uncomfortable times and situations. I am trying to grow into someone who I am truly meant to be. But in order for me to grow, I need to forgive.
When something causes me discomfort or challenges me, it is a positive sign that growth is happening. My soul knows in order for me to evolve as a human being, I need to get out of my comfort zone, and do all the things that make me uncomfortable. I cannot move forward in life if there is unfinished business, unsolved conflicts or lessons not learned.
I often look back at the road I have travelled, and then forward to the road up ahead. I immediately think of the quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson “What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.”
As I navigate working through my past; I know whole heartedly, I will be deserving of the future I desire. While my mind is expanding to all these new skills, ideas and opportunities; my heart is healing from mistakes, traumas and disappointments.
I feel as though I am faced with a double ended sword. Meaning that whatever I create, I can also destroy. My heart and mind must be resilient to change and forgiveness. To be of service to others, I must also be of service to myself.
It is important to connect to the soul. Some of the ways I connect to my soul are through meditation, prayer, journaling, and dreams. I also, find connection with reiki, breathwork and hypnosis sessions helpful and beneficial. I allow myself to listen to my soul. Whether it be in the form of whispers, signs or symbols from the Universe, and hunches or feelings. When I can connect and listen to my soul, then I can take action of what I’m truly meant to do.
Every thought that is, was and everything that will be comes from the past and future. I believe I need to listen to the guidance from the soul, heal my past traumas of the heart, forgive others and myself, be open to expand my mind to new opportunities, and let go of the need to control the outcomes of my future.
I am navigating my soul by allowing myself to be open. Open to receive. Open to believe. Open to give. Open to forgive. Open to let go. Open to grow.
Memoirs of an Emotional Fish 