Maybe in my Next Life

As I breathe deeply and feel into the rhythm of my breathing, I am often caught in a misty, magical daydream. Where physically, my body is here and in the present, but my mind has drifted off far and away to another time & space. While the images and situations seem so real. I cannot help but to wonder, if what I’m envisioning is really real, or it is just my imagination. Everytime I open my eyes, whether I’m waking up in the morning from a deep sleep, or I have returned back into my physical body after mediation or breathwork, I question myself if whether or not, what I witnessed was actually true.

I am fascinated with the subconscious mind and how it all works. The more I sit in silence, the more I hear, and the more I understand. I have found with the practice of conscious breathing it can heighten my meditative experience. I am someone, who is always curious. If I can learn more about myself, then I can grow to understand why I am, the way I am. But, the more I try to know; the less I really know. It becomes a double-edged sword. The more I discover and unravel, I reveal not only positive aspects, but also all the negative aspects about myself.

Not everyone wants to admit their faults, misfortunes, mistakes or let alone face their own darkness. All of the parts of me, that I thought I pushed deep down, healed or forgotten about, all of a sudden bubble their way back to the surface. It takes a lot of courage to face your own demons head on, and face to face. Learning to accept myself exactly as I am, and in this current physical body is definitely not for the faint of heart.

Maybe I have a sadistic nature in me, where pain is pleasure to me. In a sense, that pain, suffering and humiliation bring me a morbid sense of fulfillment. I like to get down to the nitty gritty, get down & dirty to understanding who I am, where I came from, and what my purpose is on this planet. If it makes me uncomfortable, challenges me, or pushes me to take risks then, Sign me up!

I have found that, the best way I can serve others and myself is through alternative healing practices. I personally, am so drawn to energetic healing practices such as breathwork, reiki and hypnosis, particularly in past life exploration. I am a firm believer, that everyone should be doing some sort of breathwork practice in their everyday lives. I always tell people breathwork is like “meditation on steroids.” Not only, does breathwork heal the physical body, but also the emotional and spiritual body.

For me reiki is the highest, purest, truest form of healing anyone could ever experience. Not only do I love to give reiki healing, but I love to receive reiki. The only way I can explain reiki is, for those who have never experienced it is like an energetic massage for your nervous system. You feel lighter, calmer, more peaceful, and very present in your physical body. All those insignificant problems don’t really matter. What matters most, is the bigger picture, simply existing and being grateful for all experiences of life on earth.

Then there is hypnosis. Don’t be a fool to think that hypnosis is not real. Hypnosis speaks to the subconscious mind, and to all deep hidden parts of the mind. It is no joke, and incredibly healing on another level. What I love about hypnosis, is that you are fully aware of what is happening around you, even though your body feels like it is in a deep sleep.

Lately, I have been exploring past life through hypnosis. It is a healing process, where memories & emotions that are stored deep in the unconscious mind are awakened. What I love about past life, is that when someone is open, willing, fearless, not analytical then they will learn lessons, understand themselves, resolve issues with forgiveness, and accept their lessons as gifts. Past Life not only, expands awareness but helps a person grow and be who they are truly meant to be.

Now, when I slowly close my eyes and drift off to that faraway land of misty, magical stardust, I can allow that other part of me to awaken. When I am open to receive all the memories that are stored within, I can achieve a deeper healing on every level. By practising breathwork, reiki and hypnosis, I have learned to stop blaming, practice humility, see others point of view, have compassion, be more understanding, heal through forgiveness and consequently, I have grown emotionally, mentally and spiritually.

I may or may not have lived many lives, but I have learned lessons and I have accepted my gifts. My journey to uncovering and understanding myself may take many lifetimes, but as long as there is always more life, I want more life!